I bumped into an old classmate....well more like seminar attendee....at the train station today. I really didn't see him and if it were not for him calling me out twice, I probably would have never looked his way. It only took me a few seconds to remember who he was....though I have to admit I am juggling between a two to three names in my mind. I said hello and was very enthusiastic to see how he was doing and what he had been doing outside of "class".
He didn't say much and I found myself leading all the conversations. If I didn't say anything, there would be dead silence. So I tried to keep it going, but by the fourth station I was mentally exhausted and out of ideas so I just shut it down, and true to form, there was dead silence.
This did make me think about this situation. I remember that back in our seminar, I sat next to him, and though we did have a few laughs and shared stories, I always felt that this guy didn't like me and I just had to stop being friendly and just leave him alone, which is what I did. So it does surprise me that he actually called my attention at the station. Hell, he could have just completely ignored me (and I would have never known it), but he went out of his way to come over and say that I looked familiar and that he probably knew who I was...and so I probably stand corrected.
I should have turned things around the first time. I'm a loner myself and I'm not fond of socializing myself, and even though I think leaving him alone may have been the right thing to do, feeling negatively about was the wrong mindset.
I hope that the next time I see him I will feel better about it.
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